Getting rid of Jealousy and insecurity.

"Jealousy is an emotion, and the word typically refers to the thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, concern, and anxiety over an anticipated loss or status of something of great personal value, particularly in reference to a human connection."

The not so famous ,'anticipated loss' which has killed thousand , no millions of budding relationships still in their innocence. One person gets too attached to fast, fears that the other one isn't up-to speed, starts fearing losing something so great, pushing the other person away by starting to act weird. Not their fault, actually , you can blame all you want, but the harsh truth is none of you are at fault here .

Everything got screwed up coz one of the biggest truth that governs almost everyone in this life and the world is ....

"With great love comes great fear of losing that great love"

That fear of losing, something that you love so much, the fear of something bad happening during the best of times. It's funny if you look at it in a way that you would never anticipate things suddenly getting better in the middle of chaos. It makes sense if you think about it...

People will always tell you to practice caution, always tell you to keep an eye out for some uncertain, uninvited, out of control , bad thing , that would just come and ruin everything good. They call it precaution, prevention. Basically keep an eye out so that a random bad thing wont walk in and ruin everything... But if that is true, and events are random, feelings and thoughts are random then why not be on a lookout for something random good that would just waltz in and ruin everything that is bad. Funny, right.

Ask anyone who has been into "the mode" for a while, apart from a string of Busted relationships, another thing that would be common with all of them would be the low self worth. Being insecure for a long time does that to you, and being the common factor in all those failures kinda leads a person to believe that there is something wrong with them.

Middle script: I ll refer to the J-word as "The mode"

It usually Goes on like this...

You fall in love/ you start to like someone
You decide that this is great.
Fear starts to creep in, "You don't wanna mess this up"
They miss a few calls or text msgs
You start assuming stuff
They miss some more calls, reschedule dates/ seem distracted
You start to wonder what is wrong, They seemed to like you, then why the absence?
You come to a conclusion that they might be into you.
Makes you feel bad.
The brain does what is 'does best', in situations like these
Find an external source to blame
You go stalking
You work out the math/ statistics
And find a third person to blame/ come to a conclusion that there might be someone else.
You become jealous/ start acting weird to grab attention.
You forget that this person already likes you
Your 'out of character behavior' drives this person away.
You become desperate/ either give up/ or do crazy stuff
Finally you give up/ your self esteem has taken a hit/ There was someone better/ you were inferior

People in "the mode" will often report about this "other guy" or "other girl" who would always be the competition, or trust issues even when the relationship was going on.

Social media makes it worse.

Everyone has their own way to deal with insecurity, here is what i did...

I struggled with "the mode" for a long time, and i also concluded that i have fallen into the pattern of considering myself inferior to the competition. Feeling like the 2nd one always led me to feel like i was unattractive, which manifested physically as me getting tanned, gaining weight, hair loss.. and clicking some of the worst dp's of all time.

The pattern of failing relationships continued as well. So i got fed up, decided to reboot... my life, i mean, i knew LOA , sky was the limit, at-least theoretically. I gave it all up, left my job, uprooted from mumbai, moved back to my hometown.. to figure out how i can be the best ie; make a lot of money(guys kinda get a kick out of making money- you're gaining weight; make money! - Suffered a heartbreak; Make money! ), Coz if i am the best then i wont loose to anyone.

Started working out to get back in shape, ate the right stuff, even tried to increase my height by a few inches(didn't work), shaved my head to cure my hair. Time passed on, and the work out started to show results, i was in better shape, but that feeling was still there, coz i was hung up on my last heart break. But i was still far from being the best, My friends and family often told me that i was just torturing myself, throwing my life away, but i had to be the best, so that i would never loose again. I knew i had the problem of going into "the mode" and i had to find was way to stop being insecure. Figured , if i was better than everyone, i would never be insecure again.

Stumbling onto the solution

Then it hit me that, i cant be better than who i am, i mean 'better' is anyway a relative term, so if you have to be better than someone, you need that someone to compare with, these someones would be the guys who would snatch away my "the one" every damn time.

Also, which one was i trying to surpass ? Was it the guy who works in her office, or her college friend, or her Ex boyfriend, or any random guy how would pay attention to her... Coz these guys seemed to be infinite in number.

I realized that there is always going to be someone better than me.. so if my problem really is that i think that i am less than them, then i am screwed , coz there is no solution to that.

Then i asked myself, are any of these girls really the best one out there, coz that can't be true, i know girls who are much more prettier, and more fun ... then why am i here, in love with these women.. who clearly aren't the best. ???

The answer is love, what makes these relationship special is love, the kind of love that makes me feel a certain way..that other prettier girls don't . Even when i am comfortable with them, they will only be friends, and not special, because they don't make me feel what i need to feel to be in love.

So , if i am willing to settle for someone average (statistically) , shouldn't the other person see the same thing in me, and the fact that i did feel whatever lead me on, means that we both have what it takes to make each other feel whatever we need to feel in order to fall in love and commit.

By that logic, I am fine, and good enough. (It wouldn't have started if i wasn't good enough to be in their life.)

Wow , that's a lot of backstory, pardon me, you simply have to understand one thing..

The Fear that drives you into "the mode", the fear of losing the relationship, is irrational, coz if you wanna see threats there are 3.5 billion of them. Yes there are 3.5 billion other men/women out there, and if you fear "what if he/she runs into someone interesting?" , Guess what...that can happen anywhere and at anytime, coz everyone in his/her vicinity is interesting in some capacity. And who knows , anything can click with anyone.

What do you do then? I have personally tried to act out of character, just to get attention, i have faked sickness and injury just because i wanted the other person to care... so that i can speed up thing unnaturally. I have seen people turn clingy , crazy , unreasonable and the worst of all controlling. I have seen people forbid their "special someone" to have contact with friends, best friends even family members. But is that the way to keep anyone around?

Yes.. that's you..

The solution

You need to put yourself in the other person's shoes for a while. Would you run off after every random interesting person even when you have a good thing going on with a person that you have chosen to like? If you would... then serves you right, you deserve to be abandoned! But if you are one of the normal ones... you would hold on to the 'interesting person' you already have in your life, coz they are important, and you would like to give it a chance, whatever this is....Now come back into your own shoes, you have to know that there is no competition... If you have invited a decent person in your life, and this person has chosen to stay, then they will not leave you.. you need not be threatened.. what you really need to pay attention to, is the relationship that you share with this person and cherish it more so that it can transform into something much more solid.

See... you can waste your time worrying about loss of love... or you can just love. Its you and the other person, no one can come in between you unless you put them there.

If the love between you two is growing then there is no room for a third person coming in between... This is not about trust, this is about wisdom. Be wise enough to not leave room for a third person, by not paying attention to them. (here i am transcending the laws of psychology and treading into Law of attraction , so you muggles can stop reading now) .

You get whatever you invite, so by being jealous of their best friend/ex/colleague/ family members, you are just inviting them to disrupt your relationship. Hell, just by fearing the loss of the love that you have you are inviting a circumstance that would make that happen (moving out of town/country/planet, finding someone new/ just losing interest because of depression/loss/work/something else). No they are not going to be in love with your "special someone"(that is between them and your special someone) but it will sure seem like that to you , coz you have invited it, and that is what the universe will manifest further. There is no such thing as competition, until you invent and invite it.

So you want things to get better, you want to see more of them , maybe take the relationship a step further, and you have come to know about this desire of yours through the contrast that you have been feeling in your interactions with them(missing them/ wanting more of them/ feeling the need to take thing further), then, start being appreciative and grateful for what you have with them, and then dream about where you want to take it further, and make sure to explore how it would feel when you are where you want to be.

take care.

Do we Create in our Dreams?

So you woke up from a nightmare, or maybe, it was a good dream. Maybe you dreamed of being naked, or flying, or Falling. or you were being chased, or loosing your teeth, maybe you were drowning, missing a flight or a train, unprepared for a maths test, dating and feeling amazing with a person who's face you can't remember now, having sex, playing a part in your favorite movie / tv series/ book.

Whatever it may be, dreams are a part of everyone's daily life, and i can bet that anyone reading this would have had at least 5 of these at some point or other in their lives. Some of us look for meaning, some of us try to relate these to current ongoings, some of us forget about them.

Today i am going to tell you

1. What dreams are,

and being conscious creators practicing LOA

2. Do we create while we sleep ?

The answer to the second one is NO. We Don't . We don't create while we sleep, so if you had a nightmare today threatening your reality or the people in it... please calm down. Everything is fine.

So then what are Dreams ?

The Basic Definition of a dream is..

"Dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur usually involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep."

A dream is usually a representation of your beliefs and thoughts and emotions held by your subconscious mind in the form of images.

Our Conscious mind (One we use while we are awake) can on an average get about 60 thousand thoughts in a day, So you see how things that are really important for your emotional and life growth can get lost in that sea of thoughts. The subconscious mind comes to play at night when you are sleeping, so its safe to say that Dreams are a representation of your subconscious mind.

From the point of view of a conscious creator, a dream can get you a better understanding of your vibration / focus regarding something that you are trying to manifest.

That way a dream doesn't really contribute in creation but is more of a indicator or your progress or your status regarding the thing you are trying to manifest/ Or your emotional state regarding different areas of your life.

Depending upon what kind of a person you are your dreams can fall in one of the two categories.

1.) Straight forward dreams:

Straight - forward dreams are, as name suggests pretty much straight forward, you see someone you know, talk to them, notice them while they are talking to someone else, its simple, the dream is clear and people in the dreams kinda communicate whatever is in their mind. These kind of dreams are also rare. But are pretty simple to interpret. But as with all dreams, they don't predict the future, neither are they revealing anyone's hidden intentions towards you, they are just a representation of your feelings regarding that subject. So, a spouse cheats on you isn't a sign that he/she is going to cheat on you, it may very well represent the insecurity that you may be harboring within yourself for any of the number of reasons, like , abandonment issues, trust issues, self esteem or self worth issues. Long story short, your current emotional state is pointing towards self sabotage or getting hurt, Please take care and change it, start looking for things that make this relationship special, strong, and pay attention to the love that your spouse makes you feel. Don't fret just Start feeling good about it.

2.) Interpretive dreams.

The most common dreams, flying, nudity, missing a train, drowning, being chased, all of these fall under interpretive dreams, here the message isn't so straight forward, but is conveyed by using an imagery that uses a lot of symbolism. For example, I am an expert swimmer, but i used to have dreams where i would be on the beach and the water level would be rising, while i be trying find safe ground, and this would make me panic. Now if you look up common dream symbolism, water represents your emotions, a dream about drowning would mean that certain situations in your life are causing you to feel overwhelmed. In my case , i was just running from my feelings. Similarly Dreams of being chased, or dreams of loosing teeth, all of them have their own symbolism, and meaning.

Another common dream that i used to have was driving/walking down a road, sometimes this road would be familiar like a normal one, other times this road would just take off and go up ,and i would drive up into the sky , and would see the world down from the edges , while taking care not to fall off, one time i was riding a bike with a client of mine, we were taking a road that lead through a forest and further into a tunnel, sometimes these road just end, sometimes they lead me to a place that is out of this world but dangerous. The road kinda represents a Life path, and i could interpret these dreams to know where my current emotional state would be leading me.

Here are a few dream dictionaries where you could look upon your reoccurring dreams. Remember , your dreams are a gateway to your subconscious, which is the home to your beliefs, understanding where you are headed with your current beliefs and emotions can help you a long way to help you mold your better future.

http://www.dreammoods.com/

https://www.dreamscloud.com/dream-dictionary

http://www.dreamdictionary.org/dreaming/dream-symbols/

Let us know about the recurring dreams that you are having, down in the comment section.

Take care and Sweet Dreams. :P